What happened to my sexlife?
Posted: Wed Jul 05, 2023 12:38 pm
My wife has never been interested in sex. It was always an obligation and she is a clean freak so the idea of getting 'dirty' with saliva or semen was never appealing. We had a decent sex life for a while when we were very young. As long as she had nice tits and let me eat her out, I was satisfied, but as the years went on, I started to find it difficult to cum while fucking her and I had to imaging I was fucking some other woman or man while lying on top of her with my eyes closed. We had a hard time getting pregnant so watching her body temperature and fucking on a schedule like it was a requirement rather than something spontaneous didn't help things get better.
Eventually, I spent more time masturbating and less time having sex with her and she was fine with that. Now we don't have any sex and I spend my time doing this. When I was in my twenties, I was only interested in straight sex. The internet exposed me to many varieties of sex. I saw things that I had never seen before. There were no rules back then and every variation of sex was avaiaable to tempt you. Over time, you find those things that excite you and those that don't and you start expanding your horizons. I found that the more I watched a girl sucking a cock, the more I started wondering what it would be like to be the girl in the video and feel that cock in my hand and my mouth. That lead to the desire to pursue the curiosity and to my first real experiences with cock. And then tgirls. Well, I don't know how many times I have cum for Bailey Jay and ladyboys. There is so much to discover and to try, but opportunities are limited and dissappearing rapidly. I have been with two tgirls prostitutes (and a few regular protitutes). One amazing tgirl and one blah. Another story to tell.
Before I lose the abilty to cum altogether, I want to get as many orgasms under my belt as I can. It gets harder to find things that really stimulate me now because I am older, I have seen a lot of porn, and I have my erectile issues.
Too bad there isn't a pill that can restore your sex drive and function to where you were when you were 30 years old. I tried viagara a couple of times long ago but how do you get that now without having to explain to your wife what you are doing. I have an old bottle of poppers that is empty, but it still smells of poppers and sometimes when masturbating, I sniff from the empty bottle. It does not give me a rush because the bottle is empty, but the smell brings me back like a perfume you can't forget to those days of pushing a dildo up my ass and jerking to porn that I had never seen before. Orgasms where you thought your heart would explode.
I think my wife doesn't even know I still masturbate. Its just hard to have a sexlife or acquire toys or aids without her knowing and if she knew, the dissapproval would be deadly and continuous, so I live a secret life regarding sex. There are lots of guys on doublelist who would gladly meet for quick and dirty sex, but I don't want to spend my remaining years fighting STDs or having some evil person extorting money from me, or some crazy showing up at my house demanding something of me. As such, I will stay safe until I meet someone sane, if ever.
Eventually, I spent more time masturbating and less time having sex with her and she was fine with that. Now we don't have any sex and I spend my time doing this. When I was in my twenties, I was only interested in straight sex. The internet exposed me to many varieties of sex. I saw things that I had never seen before. There were no rules back then and every variation of sex was avaiaable to tempt you. Over time, you find those things that excite you and those that don't and you start expanding your horizons. I found that the more I watched a girl sucking a cock, the more I started wondering what it would be like to be the girl in the video and feel that cock in my hand and my mouth. That lead to the desire to pursue the curiosity and to my first real experiences with cock. And then tgirls. Well, I don't know how many times I have cum for Bailey Jay and ladyboys. There is so much to discover and to try, but opportunities are limited and dissappearing rapidly. I have been with two tgirls prostitutes (and a few regular protitutes). One amazing tgirl and one blah. Another story to tell.
Before I lose the abilty to cum altogether, I want to get as many orgasms under my belt as I can. It gets harder to find things that really stimulate me now because I am older, I have seen a lot of porn, and I have my erectile issues.
Too bad there isn't a pill that can restore your sex drive and function to where you were when you were 30 years old. I tried viagara a couple of times long ago but how do you get that now without having to explain to your wife what you are doing. I have an old bottle of poppers that is empty, but it still smells of poppers and sometimes when masturbating, I sniff from the empty bottle. It does not give me a rush because the bottle is empty, but the smell brings me back like a perfume you can't forget to those days of pushing a dildo up my ass and jerking to porn that I had never seen before. Orgasms where you thought your heart would explode.
I think my wife doesn't even know I still masturbate. Its just hard to have a sexlife or acquire toys or aids without her knowing and if she knew, the dissapproval would be deadly and continuous, so I live a secret life regarding sex. There are lots of guys on doublelist who would gladly meet for quick and dirty sex, but I don't want to spend my remaining years fighting STDs or having some evil person extorting money from me, or some crazy showing up at my house demanding something of me. As such, I will stay safe until I meet someone sane, if ever.