what next to do? ( NEED SERIOUS ADVICES)

[MaakoChodunga]

(SORRY FOR MY BAD ENGLISH... MY MOTHER TOUNGE IS ANOTHER INDIAN LANG.)

My Grandparents and My Paternal Family lives together with us! Sometimes My Mom and Dad Use to Fight and Whole family tries to stop them....

Also I have seen From Many Years Mom and Dad are Not Doing Sexual Activities because most of the time there bedroom are open and my small bro and sis use to sleep with them only!!

Coming Up to the Main Condition,

in 2018 , My Mom fall in Love with Other Guy (Online) and After Fews Days She Caught red Handed By There Chats.... Later She Apologized for It

After This Incident my Mother doesn't allowed to make male frnds and Use social media on the daily Basis her phone gets check!....

That Incident sparked Me Some Sexual feelings for Mom.... And Also I Dreamt of Having sex with mom. In 2021 i Started Seducing her because I love My Mom In Other Way alot and Once I Rubbed My Dick On her Ass and she didn't realised because i rubbed for only milisecs while she is working in kitchen.

Just before months i started Picking her up By saying her (lets see how Much strength i have) with this I kissed her on lips 6 times with her consent.. Once i asked Her To do Rommance but she Said " Markhaoge Mujhse Or Papa se? ".... after somedays I also Asked for French Kiss but she Denied it Indirectly by saying "What if Ur father Finds Out?"

After This I realised that she Never Come up to me By herself to kiss me... I Stopped kissing her As of now but before 3 days only I again got dream of I am fuck my mom.....
Literally i am Confused what to do?... Should I Restart it again? or What Next step should I take?

Please suggest me some irl advices not based on Pornography because i am not here to do Timepass I want Genuine Advises...